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I thought around this time I would be writing good things about Christmas, but since the passing of my sister I don't think I can. Everybody keeps telling me that this feeling will someday passed, but it can't come soon enough. My sister had two beautiful children and what hurts me the most is that she won't be there for them, when they go off to college or to prom. I'm already hurting, but I hurt even the more when I think about her young children. I know God does everything for a reason, but I still ask him why, why did he take my sister away from us and most of all from her dear sweet children. She won't be there to catch them when they fall, she won't be there when her son has his first girlfriend or her daughter has her first boyfriend or when either one of them turns eighteen. Oh Lord, how am I suppose to celebrate Christmas or bring in the News year knowing she didn't make it. She saw ground breaking history when Barack Obama was elected as the first black president of America,but sadly she won't see him get sworn into office next month. The last time I talked to her was hours before she died through my mother on her cell phone. I asked her was she giving up and she said no. I wonder if she told me that so I wouldn't worry. I cried as she laid on her death bed, lifeless looking, begging for her not to leave because her children needed her. Doctors told my mother that she was in a semi coma, but I think she was already gone. I wonder if she heard my plea and if she tried to come back. When I was crying my mom said she can hear you, but one of my older sisters said that my mother was in denial and doctors said she was very sick. But I wouldn't say that my mommy was in denial, but she is a praying a lady and I think she thought that God Almighty would spare her baby's life. No one know how a mother feels when their child is sick and she just wanted the Lord to breathe life back into her little girl's life. She wasn't actually a little girl, but she was to her mother. My mom often wonders if she was good mother to her, but she was. She was excellent because she was by my sister's side every step of the way taking her to doctors appointments and rushing her to the hospital. As a matter of fact, she rushed her to the hospital that one last time. My mommy said she asked her on the way to the hospital was she given up and my sister said, "no ma, I got to much to live for," which is the exact same thing she told me. All the while she was saying this my mom said she never looked up and kept her head down. I hurt for my mother because no one can understand a mother's love for her child until they have their own. Sometime I cry for my big sister asking her to come and talk to me, but I don't think she will. I acted like a child sometimes knowing fully that I understand why she's gone, but I still ask why God, why? I remember when John Ritter died, his wife said their little girl told God to drop him from heaven and just like her I told the Lord the same thing about my sister. My mom said she can hear me, I just have to listen. I also asked God Almighty why did he have to take my sister away and my mom said listen and he will tell you. At times I can't sleep at night wondering about my sister. In case your wondering what was wrong with my sister, she had heart failure. We didn't realize how sick she was, although she kept saying it, maybe we were in denial and did not want her to be sick, I don't know. I wish I could hold her hand again or even feel her touch. It's crazy because I can hear her voice when I think about her, but I know she's not talking to me. I like to pretend that I visit her in heaven and we talk. I wonder what she would tell me if we did talk. I touch all of her stuff or things that she bought me every chance I get. I often sing or think about the song "tears in heaven" by Eric Clappin it makes me feel some what better. The song also reminds me of my nephew who died 8 years ago last month. He died at 10 of natural causes because he was sick when he was born. My mother also questioned herself as to whether she was a good grand mother to him and I assured her today she was.I will stop at this point because I can go on and on forever.

LaTonya

50% touch, 50 percent smile, 50% warm embrace and 60 percent encouragement are the qualities that made up Latonya. 100 percent is perfect, but her characteristics are far beyond that you see because they equal to 210 and that's tips the charts. A mother first, a daughter second, a sister third, a friend fourth and finally anything else left out is the way God Almighty fashioned her to be. With her kinds words and encouragement made you feel a tad bit better about life. Warm warm, warm embrace is what I keep hearing and touch, touch, touch, touch is all I can think about because these make up a 100 percent of her characteristics which is the perfect number on the scale. WOW, she gone and can't I hardly believe it, but when I think her I know that any goals in life I want to accomplish I' ll achieve them.
Latonya loved to loved and I can't stress it anymore that she loved to sing songs. In fact, she was known as sister-sing-along because she always sung with everyone. Death has no name, no face and it is no respecter of person because it takes whomever it wants at any given moment. It's lurks all day and night and takes the person they think who is right, but we won't worry because God received her on the other end, Amen. She is in heaven smiling above and I keep hearing this song I had some good days.
I will rejoice and be Glad in the Lord because he is my strength and my redeemer and I know he took her into GLORY. So I can say this about her
L is for the way she loved
A is for awesome anointed woman of God she was
T is the tolerance she had because had a lot
O is for the only one of her kind
N is for the nice mother sister, daughter and woman she was
Y is for the yawning desire she had to live and the future she looked into beyond her sickness
A is for always knowing her expected end.
I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU and I know you are watching down on us especially your children for you will never be forgotten, but remain in our hearts Forever.
Amen
This is my song!!!!!

Love One's loss on the holidays

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I haven't been on here for sometime, almost a month and a lot has changed since then. I've had two things that took place all in d ayI took my last final for school and I'm completely done with school and will be getting my bachelor degree in a few weeks. I also got one of these worst phone calls ever and it was my mom calling me to tell me that she was rushing my sister to the doctor because she didn't feel well. I had my mom ask my sister some questions to assure that she was OK because I was a little worried about her and my mom did and said "she think she has the flu. My sister had just been released from the hospital last Thursday because she had congestive hear failure and she thought she had gotten sick from the lady that was shared the same room as she. An hour later, while studying for my final, I got a phone call from my other oldest sister asking me why I didn't tell her that my mom was taking my sister to the hospital and that another sister of ours called her and told her doctors said her heart was beating to fast. I reassured my older sister was fine and that I didn't tell anyone because it wasn't too serious and my mom said she thinks she only has the flu and that she would call me back as soon as she found out what was going on. My sister seem to be relieve and she said that the sister that called her made it seem like she was on her death bed. I said no she's fine. I then called my mom to make some sense of the conversation I just had with my big sister. She confirmed what my other sister told my older sister and added they had to giver her something to make her heart beat at a normal rate, but my mom did not sound calm. I sense a little weariness in her voice. I said "what's wrong" and she said "nothing, I will call you back." I went back to studying for my final. I then got another call from my oldest sister saying that they had to revive my sickly sister, but she was OK, I immediately began to cry and so was the voice on the other end of the phone. I didn't even want to go to school and take my final, how could I? but my sister said go and she made it seem as if everything was fine, but I called my husband crying and told him was going on. I then began studying for my test and my twin sister called and asked me was I'm coming to the hospital after I got out of school, and how was I doing I said yes, but I thought I would go the next day maybe if everything was fine since I was getting out of school late. I wanted to know why my twin asked me this and called her, but the dropped. I called my mom to ask why she asked me these things and the call also dropped. My husband came to take me to school and he said he would go to the hospital to check on her, I saw the sun out and knew something was funny because the sun hasn't been out in a while and so I went to school to take my final very tough I may add.My husband came and got me and I don't quite remember what happened next, but we were on the subject of hospital and he said they transferred her to another hospital and he because of her condition. So we went to the hospital and I asked my family how she was doing, but no one knew and they hadn't saw her in a while and that they revived her three time instead of once and today my twin said doctors at the previous hospital said that he didn't think she was going to make it. When I asked why they didn't want to tell me they said because we didn't want that on your mind why you were taking your test, such caring girls. We finally got to see her after 5 hours, needless to say she was in terrible condition. A doctor told us that she probably wouldn't make it through the night because her body was not responding to the medication they were giving her to bring her blood pressure up, we cried and I had a child' tantrum. The doctor came back and said her body began to respond, we were really happy and some of were praying that God made a way to her whole again. She had a family full of people come to see her and after they got the news about the medication working they began to leave, but my mother and another sister her son and my sick sister's children stayed over night. A nurse told an aunt of mind that her body had respond to it more. The next day doctors wanted to perform a surgery that would make her blood flow, but sadly she died in the process and the holidays Will be so hard with her. I love her and I'm so glad that those were some of that words that we exchanged with one other. "I love you" is what we said to one another.

BLACK FRIDAY

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I haven't posted anything in a while and so I'm writing today, I know on Thanksgiving right. Have happy Thanksgiving everyone. Tomorrow is Black Friday and your suppose to find great deals in store. However the sales may not be what you think, but who knows the economy is so bad you might get some type a deal. But just be careful and don't let the sales people trick you into buying anything you can't afford. Well this will be a short posting because it is the holidays, have fun, shop smart and God Bless everyone!!!!

Word Of Advice To The Big Three

OK let's talk economy. I know I'm a day late and I should have posted my thoughts yesterday. As you can see I'm very much for this 25 billion dollar bailout. The big three went to Washington on their private jets, yeah big mistake. I don't why they made such a screwy mistake. Mr Big Three guys if your asking for help you don't fly in with your personal jets and ask congress for, money big no no. I forget who said this, but he said the choice was real arrogant and yes it was. I hope they are much smarter next time about doing something so out of line. I also hope they come up with a good plan that is mapped out accordingly to the money they need. I can't believe they went to congress with out a plan, no plan what a big mistake. They basically went there like little children asking for money.
I just hope they have a better plan than the one they took to congress the first time which is no plan. In a recent article Governor Jennifer Granholm give the big three some advice. One of things she asked them to do is not fly in with their jets and come into Washington by commercial. I think she makes a very good case. Granholm also said she doesn't think it's too late for them to plead their case I don't know I think the jets may affect them in some type of way, but what do I know I'm just a college student and not a politician and I can very well be wrong. We will see.
To read Granholm's full article go to freep.com

Michigan in Washington

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Big news happening in Michigan or should I say Washington. The big three and major figures of Michigan are on their way to Washington to ask congress for 25 billion to bail them out of their financial crises. Wow this is amazing because if congress denies the bail out then this means bad news for Michigan's economy. You guys thing the country is in a recession now, just think of the many things that will happen if they don't bail them out. Not only will the auto industry cut back on job,s but other place of businesses will cut back on their workers.
There are many people around the country saying the government should not bail the big three out, but they shouldn't cast their stones at the auto industry just yet. If the car companies shut down their companies a number of things can happened and BELIEVE ME PEOPLE YOU WILL BE EFFECTED TOO. There are so many blogs out their that says the government shouldn't help Michigan, but they are not even thinking about their futures. First of all I don't have anything against foreign cars, but why would you want all foreign cars and no American cars and you live in America. That in it's self is totally unamerican. Foreign cars are not the cheapest cars in the world because they do come from overseas.
Just image if something went wrong, God forbids your car breaks down and you have to get it fix. The part for the car is going to cost a lot because it has to be ordered from overseas. Also I'm pretty sure that foreign auto makers will jack the prices of the cars and make them much higher than they already are because there won't be any American cars to buy.

Economy

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I haven't blogged in a few days, but here is my latest tip. For anybody that has been reading my blog you probably have notice that I've been repeatedly talking about the economy. I am watching the news online as I am tying this blog. The auto industry is asking congress for a 25 billion dollar bailout. This is a shell shock revelation that America is facing. Some republicans are saying let the auto industry shut down, but they don't know is that the effect will trickle down to them sooner or later. I've heard various opinion in the the last couple days about the bailout. I've been hearing that if the auto industry shuts down than a lot of jobs will be lost in Michigan. Jobs are already being lost in Michigan a news outlets revealed tonight that a hospital in Michigan will cut back on a numerous amount of jobs. E J B is saying come on Congress.

Food for Thought

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This is the 6th day and still no one has read my blog, except a few family members. I guess this is OK since there are so many blogs out there. I like to write and voice my opinion, so I guess I will be writing to myself, lol. I really love the holidays and I guess is why I keep talking about them to myself, lol. Don't know what to cook this Thanksgiving, but want some new ideas then surf the web. There you will find all types of food recipes. One of my favorite sites to surf when I need a recipe is McCormick. I think they have some of the best recipes. The site is mcCormickgourmet.com. A new I came across today is allrecipes.com.

Holiday Tips

Thanksgiving is around the corner. Do you want to cook a meal, but don't have the funds, then look for assistance in your area. I don't know if it's too late in the month, but there are organizations that will provide food for you and your family. Some one actually gave me this idea. My group and I had to put a single parent panel together for school and one of our panelist was from an organization. He came in to talk about the single parents they help. He said they help a lot of families each year and my idea stemmed from there. Please go get that holiday food so your family can enjoy and please throw away your pride. Another innovated idea is saving and using coupons, this never hurt anybody. Also look for items that are on sale and try using generic brand foods this holiday season too. If you can't afford gifts for your children, by all means don't go broke. When I was younger Good Fellow used to help families that needed assistance with getting parents gifts for their children. I think these are very helpful tips in a economy like this.

Holiday Column

Ahhh the aroma of a turkey basing in the over, dressing, macaroni cheese and the whole nine yards. Oh, and don't forget about the songs Deck the Halls and have a Holly Jolly Christmas.
Thanksgiving and Christmas are probably the most traditional and celebrated holidays in the United States, no matter what the person religion is and every year people go broke because of them.
The question is can people afford to over spend for the holidays and the answer depends. If you are a millionaire who can shelve out tons of money to lavish your friend and family in gifts from Tiffany's then the answer is yes. But if your the average Joe working 40 hour plus trying to make ends meat for your family then the answer is no. No you can not buy gifts for friends and family member to parade around.
You can not go broke buying Jack, Jill and Sally gifts for the holidays to parade around in. Who are we kidding they are not going to offer to help pay your huge astronomical bills in the end. They are going to feel as if you bought them the gift why should they dig you out the hole.
Let's talk about those fun credit cards. Each year creditors send out ads for people to sign up for a credit card and some Sueze Q falls for it every year. Q fills out the application hoping to buy some really nice Christmas gifts for the people in her life, however she doesn't read the fine line and off to the mall she goes.
Her most famous line to retailers will be charge it, charge it without realizing the emotional and physical damage she is causing herself. In the end her love ones will be happy, but Q will be emotionally scared.
Financial adviser has some advice for people and credit cards. According Princeton Online Financial advisers "caution people not to get caught up in credit card offers that seem just too good to pass up. Educate yourself about terms and methods credit card companies tend to entice consumers into getting deeper and deeper in debt."
Gladys Speed, homemaker, said, "I do think people go broke for the holidays." But is it worth going broke for the holidays. Speed said people go broke for the holidays to make others happy.
Speed said she will not be buying Christmas gifts this years because she does not have the money, but if she did she would budget herself.
Angela Speed, Gladys' daughter, also said she will not be buying gifts for the holiday. In a previous conversation about Halloween Speed said that people are not going to haunted house like they use because they don't have the money.One haunted house admission was $45 because of the "VIP package".
Antonio Burnett, Gladys' son-in-law, said he knows some people that go broke every year for the holidays. He said "I know a lot of people in the hood that go broke for Christmas."
Please have a blessed holidays and shop smart.

Part 2 Don't go broke for the Holidays

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I don't really have anything to talk about today. But I do have maybe one more suggestion for holiday gifts. By cheap inexpensive items and create baskets. I did this once for my family members and they loved them and I really had fun making them. The Dollar Tree has all the accessories you need to make a basket and fun little gift to also put in the baskets. Micheals is also another store that is a tad bit more expensive, but also have nice accessories to put in baskets. Who knows, you may venture off into a whole nother ]Again don't go broke for the holidays.

Don't go broke for the holidays

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I have started my research on my article about will people go broke for the holidays. I think I might have gotten an answer because yesterday I actually heard people say they will go broke for the holidays. In addition, they also stated they don't care what people say about the economy. The funny thing is I didn't even interview these people the topic just happen to come up.I was both shocked and amazed to hear that, but I still don't believe that everyone is like this. My husband and I still haven't talked about what happened yesterday. I can image what he will say. I'm guessing somewhere a long the lines of I told you so. I'm optimistic and I believe that there has to be some people out there who are not willing to go broke buying turkey, mac and cheese, gifts and Christmas decorations. I don't know what news station it was, but I heard a reporter say that Kmart and Walmart has lay- way so this is a thought instead of maxing out those credit card.s I also heard another good idea that my sister suggested. She said that she isn't buying anybody a gift and this gave me an idea. I think that people should not try to impress anybody. If you can't afford a gift than don't go broke buying gifts because you're trying to impress somebody. In the long run they will have a nice gift and your pockets will be hurting, trust me. You can also set a budget for your self of how much money you will spend. Walmart not only has lay-way, but they also have inexpensive gifts. I think they are really nice, I have bought a few Christmas gifts and birthday gifts and the people who received them really enjoyed them. I'm not trying to promote Walmart because I really don't care for the store, but it's just a suggestion. Out let stores also have deals on gifts around the holidays. I'm really enjoying myself writing this blog, although no one is probably reading this. I can't wait to write these articles. Who knows maybe I will start another topic and leave the economy issues a long, but not for now.

Holiday and the economy

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Let's talk about the holidays and the economy. As we know people are losing their jobs due to the tough economy. But what I would like to know is, will people go broke for them. I'm not sure, but my husband said they will. He stated that he's talked to people through the years that said they don't feel right unless they go broke for the holidays. He also mentioned that people from "the hood" especially go broke for the holidays. I don't know America, will people surrendered their house mortgages, car payments or utility bills for a festive occasion. I set out and do some research and then do the unthinkable. I will write an article before this month is over in the next week or so and submitted and let viewers, if there are any out there lol read it. I would like to get their comments and views of this topic.

Obama for Change

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Today Obama gave his first president-elect speech. He said that he will deal with the economy as soon as he becomes President. I think this is a good thing because of so many job losses. It's finally great to see a President that wants to make a change for the people. I think he will do great in the White House. I also think this country will begin to heal and people will begin to look beyond color -lines. Let's talk about the race factor of Obama.
A lot people are happy because America has it's first black president, but the issue is far deeper than this. Sure people in America has moved beyond color-lines because they've elected the first black president, but the fact of the matter is, it's not about his skin color . I hope people did not vote for him because of his skin color, but because he stand for change. I also hope that people did not vote for him because they think that their going to get some type of break, but because he stands for change. I voted for him not for his skin color or because he made history, but because I didn't want another Bush in the White House (John McCain). I also didn't want a VP in the White that didn't know that Africa was a Continent.
We the people deserve to have a President that is going to stand for change. I think the Electoral House made a fine decision when they elected him as President. I can't wait for him to become the Official President of the United States of America on January 20, 2009. GOD BLESS AMERICA!!!

The Job Market

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My name is Elaine and like so many people out there I am managing to juggle life. I hope to have people come to my blogg and read and share my views. I would like to start off by talking about the job market. It's not easy finding a job these day, Lord knows I've tried. Sure there are jobs out there, but are they the right jobs for you and the answer is simple, not all the time. I am in my last semester of college and I currently work for a temp service. My assignment was dismissed today due to car trouble. I am neither upset or mad about the situation because God has something better for me. What, I'm not sure, maybe something in my field. I was considering going into the field of teaching which is not my profession, however there were a lot job a few years back in this field, but now there isn't. I am going to keep searching until I find something. If there is anyone in this same situation, please don't give up and hold the faith because God has something better for you too. But know there some sites out there that post jobs on an everyday bases.